2015 - This Mamas Dance

Happy New Year! It’s hard to believe that it is 2015! At least I am finding it hard to believe. In type and in print “2015” looks like some sort of fictitious futuristic number.

We have had a really great break the last 2 weeks. We put away the school books, and took about 4 days off from house projects (which is a big deal for us!) Amazingly we had our final inspection on the addition Dec.23, and moved the boys to their new room on Christmas Eve. It was really sweet to enjoy Christmas morning in our new living room with the crackle of the fire, and to spend the afternoon playing, drinking coffee and working on a puzzle in the loft. Life definitely feels different with more space.

We rang in the new year at our house, which we have only ever done once. It was fun! Our friends spent the night along with my mom, and we had 7 kids in the house and all survived! Everyone else opted to go home… can I say I blame them? I kid, I kid.

I am so looking forward to continuing to set up our place, and enjoying life and dreaming with my hubby Matt. 2014 was a year of changes, and in many ways, we feel like for the first time, we are starting to get our heads above water. All of the construction projects (like the addition and the Space) are coming to a close, and we are starting to map out what our 2015 might look like. I have to admit, I love the idea of setting goals and making plans… but we really are swinging into 2015 as though it were another Tuesday.

I don’t know if it’s the fact that we have 3 kids, or all of Matt’s business partners now living out of province- but the pace of our life is something that we just have to take in one day at a time. If I look too far ahead I get a little bit overwhelmed, but also excited. The month of January will more then likely mean a trip to Thailand for Matt, to finalize location and actors for She Has a Name the Film. We are gaining momentum, but to be honest a film of this magnitude requires a lot of effort! We hope to “move” our family to Thailand for the duration of the shoot, because we feel that life will be more right 😉 Not necessarily because it’s easier…

We also took on a huge {for us} responsibility and life change in committing to The Space. Its kind of interesting and crazy and exciting. Pray for us!

Looking back on the year I see why God directed us the way he has. I think that the main thing I could take away is that God knows… you know the scripture

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us”

(had to look it up, Ephesians 3:20) I feel like I am starting to “get it.”

God has been teaching me about the ask from the time I was a little girl. It’s not all about fulfilling our own wants and needs- it is about aligning our hearts with the heart of the creator. As silly as it sounds, God has taught me that through the building of our house… there is HIS power at work within us. We don’t know how to build a house?! We have never been trained- in fact, going into this, we had laid some laminate, tile, put in a bath tub, hung some doors and installed an IKEA kitchen. We didn’t know what we were doing… but, his power within us… working. When I look at the finances we have done this on, I almost laugh out loud, and Matt really literally does! Somehow, God is providing. We want our home to facilitate encounters with the Holy Spirit. Truly… to minister, to listen, to offer rest, laughter, somewhere to cry or sleep, or be distracted from the pains of life. To find Hope.

And then there is the Space- which is so much more then an office or studio. God did it… and he used us. I can’t quite explain how the connection occurs for me between the physical and spiritual, but it is there.

I ask myself, if God can utilize me for things like this, then how can he utilize me for the really big things… I need to stop seeing them as big and impossible. Something we feel a call on our life for is to bring restoration to the broken. Within that, I see how God can redeem, but he can also make new. To move us from building and restoring in the physical, to doing the same thing for the soul.

This feels like a bit of an all over the place post… but that is how I guess I am feeling today. A few years ago I shared a “word of the year” today I am going to share 2.